MOST OF MY BLOGS ARE BASED ON THE POSITIVE PHYSICAL CHANGES , TRAINING HAS HAD ON ME… AND I USED TO BE FAT.. NOW EVERYTHING IS GLORIOUS AND EASY…. WELL, NOT ENTIRELY TRUE…..
My mindset, the devil on my shoulder, telling me it’s okay.….. How I got where I am, how I will get where I want to go… Not the Shannon everyone thinks they know, confident, fierce, firey and always in control of her shit…
My main struggle is maintaining my competition weight (i compete in powerlifting at under 72kg) My walk around weight would have been around 75 – 76kg in 2016.
I qualified for IPF Worlds in Texas June 2016, in January so I had a good 5 months to prepare… Even though I qualified – I didn’t want to go..
That voice inside, doubting myself ” i am not good enough”….
The closer it got, the more doubt, I had..
I mean I knew I was strong, but didn’t feel I had earned the right to compete on a world stage… Lets face it i was a novice at best… In fact I qualified at a IPF novice competition.
Around 8 weeks before, I still had not booked flights, coach, family, boyfriend and friends kept asking me when I was booking etc…Professional procrastinator, just kept putting it off.. In my own head I wasn’t going..
But then WHAM!
I got fully sponsored to go.. The pressure was on… ” F%&K my life”
I am an emotional eater…Happy, sad, confused, surprised, tired all of the emotions…. all of the food
Firstly , I started to eat shit in my car home from Dublin (I commuted to Kilkenny everyday) , kept putting on weight.. Went up as high as 77.5kg.. I didn’t tell anyone, so i purposely jeopardising my chances of going…
My job was a Tutor at the time, preaching to students about all things Health and Fitness , coaching clients in two counties, getting them results left right and centre… Here’s me struggling behind closed doors…
I even got a nutritionist to help with me prep… but didn’t follow any of it.. Would check in with him and lie…
“ All going well man, weight is down, I feel great, strength is there… “
If I remember correctly the only person I told, was my sister about me like “secretly eating” in the car about 3 / 4 weeks pre-comp……….Her exact words were “you are fucking mental, what the actual fuck like… STOP!! “
OK so fast forward, im on the flight…… Water-loading… on a long haul flight to texas – not pleasant…
Still lying about my weight out loud and shaking inside…Struggling with pre-comp nerves and dying inside about what I has just done to myself, I mean my job and sponsored me to go… What if I don’t even make the fucking weigh in, how do I explain that………
I told my mum….. She fully didnt understand what was going on… Genuinely thought i was crazy…
I then, had a word with myself… I had 4.8kg to drop in 36 hours. (2hour weigh in) I’ll spare you the details, I went through to drop that weight. As they are disturbing , a little insight, lets imagine epsom salt baths, a Walmart sauna suit, my full international Irish tracksuit a long walk and 36 degree Texas Heat…..
Anyways made weight – competed, ok.. was like a zombie, but body performed well, considering and nobody knew what had happened..
I then had along chat with myself… when I came home. Re-evaluated my goals, my self-worth… Something to note, I competed internationally at a professional level in IUKL Kettlebells, so I am no stranger to comp prep.
“Genuinely I did not believe I was good enough “
But, I am good enough… Look at what my body can do… it literally does everything I ask it to… Drop weight, after self-sabotaging, perform to a high level after everything I through at it…
So, I took it upon myself to make it my business to re-set my mindset and bodyweight, so I can be as competitive as possible and walk around closer to my competition weight.Since then, I have reset my walk around weight..
I am very open about my weight and struggles now.. As I find it easier to manage if I am going through a bad time…
It all boils down to my mindset.. I now consistently eat well 90% of the time.. I allow for mistakes , slip ups or planned free meals….
The only difference now, is I hold myself accountable. So I don’t pretend I haven’t had it.. I just move on… There is no beating myself up about it, I mean we have to live…. Competing is my hobby not my job..
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